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text; un: fourseasons, three days after Horror Central(TM)

[consonanter]

[If there's anyone Noah has been worried about the most in the aftermath of all this, it’s March. To have murdered someone is already hard enough to take- but to do so when you're not even yourself? He can't even imagine.

So March will get this text from him, concern easily apparent. There's no sense of awkwardness or discomfort on his end- he knows March wasn't herself when this happened. She would never hurt anyone.]

Miss March? ...I know asking if you're well is rather pointless in this situation, all things considered, but- have you been able to be around company the past few days at all?

one day later

[trailblazingspirit]

[She almost doesn't respond.

How, exactly, do you apologize to someone for killing them in cold blood? She's not sure. She can't really tell Caleb or Dan Heng about this—some part of her is terrified they'll look at her differently. March looks at herself differently, really. But. Well. This had to happen sooner or later. So:]

dont worry about me.
im worried about you. are you ok?

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[The fact that she doesn't respond until a whole day later, and with a "don't worry about me" just makes Noah worry even more. March has always struck him as bright and open, especially in the memories he has of her.]

I'm doing better- I've been spending my time with friends and with Robin, mostly. We're recovering as best we can.

Still... you didn't answer my question. Have you seen any of your friends since we came back?

[He doesn't like pointing things out, but he truly is concerned about her. If there's anything he remembers vividly as Sunday, it was that he was always alone. He kept everything to himself, to the point of despair and desperation. Noah knows that the only way to heal from something like this is to let others help you through it.]

[trailblazingspirit]

i live with caleb of course ive seen him. im ok really. im just

[The fact that her texting is like that is probably a dead giveaway to her real mood, huh? If he presses her she knows she'll break and tell him the truth, but. How can she put that on him when she's the one who killed him?]

you really dont have to be worried for me mr noah. i know i hurt you.
im
sorry.

[And that's inadequate, really, after what she did to him and to Faye, but what is she supposed to do here? How do you make amends after something like that?]

[consonanter]

[She's not fooling anyone, not even him.]

...Miss March, please don't force me to actually talk to Caleb about my concern for you. He's the Trailblazer, right?

[Despite not talking with March very much, Noah can tell she's anything but okay. Her text isn't helping, and he really hates being a source of pressure in something like this. Shutting down and trying to not talk about it is only going to let the feelings fester over time, not get better.

But her "sorry" is something Noah's actually prepared for, in a way. He knows how she feels much more than she may realize.]

There's no need to apologize, I promise- I know that wasn't actually you. That ship was alive and brought out the worst in all of us. It wanted to drag us to hell. No one is at fault for what happened there.

[He can't hold anyone accountable save for the Event Horizon herself. This was not something anyone had any control over, they were simply left to the whims of something far more sentient than they ever thought.]

[trailblazingspirit]

[Oh fuck no she cannot let anyone tell Caleb or Dan Heng just how badly she personally did while on that ship. Selfishly, she just doesn't want them to know that she was—capable, of hurting so many.]

ok ok ok. i can talk. we can talk. dont bring caleb into this pls.

i just
feel guilty and sad about how i kept seeing people i missed and i let the ship trick me over and over.
and even guiltier that i feel sad bc you and hermes werent even doing anything and i hurt you that bad.
does that make sense?

why are you so concerned anyway??

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I won't, you have my word. I won't involve Caleb.

[His heart breaks as she finally cracks, knowing all too well the want and need to be with someone you love so much. That you would tear the world down and everything else in order to see their dream realized and made real. That your own well-being mattered far less if it meant they would be happy at the end result.

Sunday meant well in his intentions, but he approached everything in the worst way possible.

There's something here that tugs at him, though, at her question. Why are you so concerned anyway? Noah can't quite put a finger on it, but there's this sense of wanting to make sure she's all right, that she should know she isn't the only one alone in this.]

I understand, and I don't blame you for feeling upset. I can't imagine being in a completely different place and unable to see the ones you care for.

Why am I so concerned? I'm...

I suppose the easiest way to explain it is that I understand, in a way. Missing people you care for greatly. And having to face this truth, this burden alone. Please, Miss March- whatever you do, don't carry this all by yourself.

...It was the only way I knew how to live for a very long time, as Sunday- and I ended up nearly drowning in despair and desperation because of it. [It was agony, being isolated and led to believe that there was no love from Xipe, no care for THEIR people or THEIR worlds. That anything he did would only lead to more tragedy.] I don't want that for anyone, especially someone I know. Your friends wouldn't want you to struggle through this on your own, so please let them help you.