I can contact them in...two weeks, maybe? Or next month. I want to give them that reason myself, but I don't want them to feel uncomfortable.
[She's already caused them enough pain, after all. She won't be the reason they feel more.
She pauses for a moment, letting this sink in. The first option is not something she can countenance—which leaves the second option, hard as that is. Because Persephone's right, now she knows all too well what she's capable of if pushed hard enough, even if she wasn't sane at the time. She knows, too, how it affects others, how such loss rips into other people who loved them. So she nods.]
I can learn. I'm a very fast learner. And...next time something like this happens, I'll have learned from this, and I'll do better by everyone else. And I won't go near the big obvious trap, that too. [She fiddles with her sleeves.] I won't let this grief and horror be the end of me. I'll be better tomorrow than I was then.
...I have to be. I don't have a yesterday to lean on.
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[She's already caused them enough pain, after all. She won't be the reason they feel more.
She pauses for a moment, letting this sink in. The first option is not something she can countenance—which leaves the second option, hard as that is. Because Persephone's right, now she knows all too well what she's capable of if pushed hard enough, even if she wasn't sane at the time. She knows, too, how it affects others, how such loss rips into other people who loved them. So she nods.]
I can learn. I'm a very fast learner. And...next time something like this happens, I'll have learned from this, and I'll do better by everyone else. And I won't go near the big obvious trap, that too. [She fiddles with her sleeves.] I won't let this grief and horror be the end of me. I'll be better tomorrow than I was then.
...I have to be. I don't have a yesterday to lean on.